The guest house 

This being human is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor. 

I start with a poem by Rumi as it sums up my experience with my mind on this journey so far. I don’t how I’m going to wake up or what path my day will take. However I can control my mind and the thoughts it has. 

I’ve just started having Cognitive Behavoural Therapy to help me manage my more negative thoughts. Each week my therapist sets me homework to help me do this. She recommended a great book on mindfulness which I’m finding very helpful. 

Welcome and entertain them all! Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture. 

I’ve been looking for mindfulness courses but having found none I turned my attention to a new skill I could learn. Something to focus my mind on and leave those negative thoughts behind. I’ve always loved arts and crafts so enrolled with the local college to do Stained Glass Window making. 

Last Thursday I spent 2.5 hours cutting out glass and making patterns with it. I was very relaxed by the end of the class. And energised. I came home and blitzed the housework. The next morning I willingly got up with my early riser as I had missed seeing him the evening before. It was a special time for me as I realised I was practicing mindfulness in that moment. 

Still, treat each guest honourably. He may be cleaning you out for some new delight. 

Since then I have felt empowered to be the person I want to be. To fight for the things I want. To continue to embrace these feelings and opportunities that come my way. My therapist thinks I’ve changed in one session! 

The dark thought, the shame, the malice. Meet them at the door laughing, and invite them in. 

The trick now is for my to sustain this mindfulness. To make it a habit. To practice it regularly. To acknowledge the feelings I have bit to move back to focus. To strengthen both my mind and body. 

Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.